Getting Started

I have blogged before,  never seriously, and never with purpose. 

This time though, I wanted a purpose.  You see, I joined weight watchers again with the hopes of finally losing the weight I've been carrying around for years.  They have a blog option on the website, but if you're not a member you don't get to see it.  I don't really do a lot with the community on the website so for them to follow me, well it may be helpful but it's not really why I would blog.  I want people I know to be able to follow what I'm doing.  So I thought, maybe I'd start a weight-loss blog.  The more I thought about it, I didn't just want it to be my weight loss.  I am also in the midst (or at the very beginnings) of researching DMA (doctor of musical arts) programs at schools across the country which means in one year from right now I will be planning the biggest move of my life.  Basically, there's a lot of "new" I'm trying to deal with.  I started thinking about a common theme but weight-loss and DMA research didn't really work together.  As I thought and let my mind wander, I realized I'm looking for change.  As is the case with myself, my sister, and many musical people in my life, I immediately thought of a song from a musical.  This song from William Finn's musical "A New Brain" became title of this blog.  It really is all I want.  I want to change my physical image, I want to change my position in life, I want to change my surroundings. 

You see, I am very good at settling down and being comfortable.  For example, my rent is good, my income is steady-ish (at least I've started figuring out a system to make it that way), I have a fabulous circuit of friends and family, so really why would I want to change any of that? 

The answer, now, is simple.  I am settled and comfortable here, but I work my ass off to do it.  I piece together anywhere from 3-6 part-time jobs to make a full-time paycheck.  I make it work though it becomes a scheduling nightmare, but I make it work.  I love everything I do which makes me insanely lucky, but it's exhausting.  For me to make a comfortable salary and still do what I love, the next step is a DMA.  For me to feel at all comfortable with myself and find some personal satisfaction in this work, the next step is weight-loss.  It took awhile to realize these things, but now, you see, it's simple.

So changes must be made and all I can say is I'm trying.  But I need help.  I can't do this on my own.  My next post directly after this one will be copied from my WW (weight watchers) blog.  It explains where I'm coming from on the weight-loss issue.  I tried to be really positive and motivational but the post after that (as far as I made it on there, the rest will all be posted directly from here) is less so. 

This is an adventure.  An adventure from home, but an adventure none-the-less.  I'm aiming for equal parts weight-loss and where-the-heck-am-I-going-to-be-in-a-year but knowing me, tangents will occur.

Happy Trails!