My Constant Dilemma

I am nowhere near mastering or fully understanding weight watchers.  I'm going to try and explain my brain a bit which may be the worst idea of my day but what the hey, if not here, then where? 

This happened the last time I joined.  I would think about how many points are in certain foods, I would know how many points I had in the day and I would want to make sure I stayed within my allotted points.  Then comes the questioning and rationalizing.  In my head, eating more than 4 points at once seems extreme.  This can be true for snacks, a light breakfast, and even a decent sandwich.  But for me to feel satisfied or have a complete dinner it requires the use of more than 4 points.  So when I'm looking at recipes or figuring out the points of a potential meal, I get frustrated and disregard many options because I think it's too many points to spend at once.  But then I go and eat a serving of chips with my sandwich and have some fruit juice totaling 10 points.  Does this make sense?  Well no, but it's something about the idea of eating one meal or one dish with more than 4 points.  It makes me feel like I'm binging.  This is why I say I haven't figured WW out yet.  I'm not supposed to feel bad about eating.  I just have to make better decisions. 

So that was my dilemma today (I just realized dilemma is spelled with two m's, and not a single n.  Woops...) especially when I'm in recovery mode from this weekend.  But I did well none-the-less.  Diz and I took a walk to the bucks to visit T, I got a mocha frappuccino light that's only 3 points (booya!) and got a solid hour and a half walk in to boot.  Tomorrow I have another show and will be making my triumphant return to the gym, and then I teach all day.  Lessons are a good distraction from eating.  So long as I have some good options there for me, it keeps me from sitting around being bored and constantly thinking about food.  Which is the worst.  I have a few leftovers from previous meals but I'm gonna have to cook again soon.  And shop.  Shopping twice in one month.  This is new for me. 

Question - any idea why the hardwood floors and linoleum kitchen floor would be dangerously slippery rather suddenly?  No one waxed, no one mopped, one day our floors turned into a slip and slide.  Sometimes fun, dangerous in heels.  Any thoughts would be welcome.